Resolutions of some sort

Without even purposely meaning to, I reconnected with two old friends today -- one more than the other. Buffalo Dave called this morning to check on things. It was a bittersweet conversation, as it almost always is. I always get a wistful feeling when we talk, and a little part of me always wonders, "what if..."

We haven't spoken in more than a month, and somehow over the years, we have gotten out of the habit of talking every week, sometimes several times a week. He was calling to check on the baby process and where I was with things.

He was supportive and loving, and said all the right things when I started to convey my frustrations at my own body failing me. When I told him how I sometimes can't keep my emotions in check, like how I cried the other day when I heard the Billy Ray and Miley Cyrus song on the car radio. We promised each other that we would talk at least once a month, and I made a mental note to write it on my calendar, which I of course forgot to do. (sending myself an email at work right now)

My other friend -- Karen. We worked together when I lived in Rochester, my first job right out of college, and after she had a baby, I started babysitting for her a few Saturdays a month. When I moved to Baltimore, we stayed in touch for a little while, but as friends do, we drifted apart. I found her on LinkedIn and sent her an email this morning. The ironic thing -- as soon as I sent the email, I wrote down the date and realized today is her birthday, so I sent her another quick email withe birthday wishes.

We emailed back and forth with a quick synopsis of our lives, updates on the boys, my baby plans, etc. It felt so good to be in touch with her. She, her (now ex-) husband, and two boys were my extended family in Rochester. And I remember how sad I was to leave them when I moved to Baltimore.

And so, while it's not a concrete resolution with measurable outcomes, I will be a better friend this year, I will be better about staying in touch, and those I've lost touch with, I will drop "hello" notes. Being in touch with Karen today made me feel so happy -- why not continue this with more happy days and more happy re-connections.